This song came from a place of absolute confusion. 2021 was full of rapid change for me, and it was more than I could handle at the time, or so I thought.

I had just left a long term relationship, suddenly had all these internet strangers watching me (fun fact: the song title is a reference to my first viral video), my life in the corporate world was becoming draining, I wasn’t doing what I loved most anymore - making music. I was beginning to lose myself to stress and anxiety, something I’ve always fought to control. I didn’t like where I was even though I was the one in control of my situation.

I began searching for peace. I met new friends, tried out different apartments, traveled to different countries. I tried to fill every second of my free time with something new and stimulating to escape my feelings and thoughts.

Eventually I couldn’t keep running, and was forced to feel my feelings. I basically vomited the lyrics out into my notebook and we recorded the song the next day. I think we had all my vocals recorded in just two hours, it was honestly a blur.

tattered sleeves wasn’t supposed to be the first song I put out, but I’m glad the decision was made to push it to the front of the line.

I no longer want to scream, for the time being.